similar much?

like the sunset? like the mosslanding beach? like to smile? think life is a mistake without music? Me TOO!!

It's quite wonderful to find out how much you have in common with those you care about.

Spring break has been fun but on a scale of 1-10 regarding academic productivity has been a 1!! oh. my. god! I'm in trouble uggg

But I've gained skills experiences and memories and I've smiled a whole lot.

indescribably great

4 amazing days in nature
much learned knowledge
lots of "ooooh"s and "aaaaah"s
fantastic ending to it all with a text

The Grand Canyon was the most amazing natural phenomenon I've ever seen. I'd seen pictures of it but when I, for the first time, got the the rim of the canyon and look out, I felt so tiny and unimportant compared to the majestic and great and ancient rocks and river and caves. I enjoyed every moment I was there; well that's a lie because I did get pretty annoyed with my dad's childishness at times. Yet, overall it was an amazing experience.

Then on the drive back, I encountered a pleasant surprise: a text massage, short and simple but significant in what it implied. :]

I also finished knitting the scarf :) Max's birthday will be extremely funny but special this year. It is a sweet sixteen after all! Oh friends.

Fork in the road?

You know how sometimes you really want to do something but aren't entirely sure if you should? or when you do something and then regret it a bit simply because it was foolish or not well examined before done? I had both of those today. Yet again. I don't know whether to be happy, sad, excited, or feel dumb.

As I think about this my grandpa's trite yet true pharse comes to my mind. "Time heals everything and answers many of your questions."

I guess I'll just wait and see...and make the best of everything :)

Thinking about the negative possiblities to fully appreciate life...

Some times when I'm really happy or very satisfied with how my life is going, I take a step back and think about the possibility of something, anything, going wrong.

A few weekends ago, I was at my great uncle's house and saw one of my relatives who is a senior and has cancer that has metastasized and is expected to live for 3 more months maximum. She was an exceptionally bright student at school, and a nice and likable girl. She is still hopeful; she has applied to various colleges and expects to hear from them soon. Since she is a distant relative, I don't know her that well and have never actually talked to her much but her case has made me think a lot.

Life is so random; one moment I may be driving and a drunk driver may hit me and kill me. Maybe one of my proto-oncogenes turns into and oncogene (apbio!!) and cause cancer in my body, eventually taking my life. A dead person doesn't go to college; nor does she become a doctor and have a family. I hate to think about these negative possibilities, but I truly believe that if we don't think about how our lives could be extremely miserable, or that we would lose our lives much sooner than we would want, we won't fully appreciate everything that we have.


So enjoy it. Life is way too short. Smile, don't frown. Be friendly, don't hold grudges. Include, don't exclude.

Tears of joy, laughters of amusement, and a close call!

Today was a strange, marvelous, wonderful, fun, funny, and memorable day. It consisted of me in an extremeley hyper mood due to sleeping for only 3 hours the night before, my teacher screaming and nearly crying of joy, and me nearly getting busted for my every day lie.

I must keep it short and sweet today because of oh academia!

A day of snappiness

Mr. Micheletti: Let's bless the softball players for their big game today.
Hedieh: I had a really big performance a few days ago and you didn't bless me!!! (said in a demanding tone)

Apparently I was being strange and weird today; that is to say, I was not weird as Hedieh is every day but that I was different from my usual self. The interesting thing is that I had no control over it, which frightens me a bit. I even find myself wondering whether I have changed into a more critical, less friendly person over the past few years.
It is amazing how much people can change. As I write this I have a specific person in mind who has dramatically changed from an entertaining, fun girl to a very critical, gissippy, even self-absorbed individual. My morals tell me not to judge her; thus I constantly try to think about the variety of personalities that make the world, and all our lives so interesting and eventful. I mean, think about it, it would be pretty boring if everyone were extremely nice to each other or if everyone were extremely critical of one another. So I guess it's good to have people of all personalities, mindsets, and values.

I am afraid of change though; I know I shouldn't be but I am. What if the change makes me unlike me and different for the worse...